Testimony of "J.N.S.R."
It is my healing that happened miraculously, in 1973,that has made me come back to religious practice after 30
years of being “lukewarm”:
“ I had a complete paralysis of my left eye; I stayed one
month in hospital where doctors looked for a brain tumour (the CT scan didn’t
exist), and an operation was scheduled to give me back only 3 tenth of my
normal vision. But before the operation and another stay in hospital for more
painful tests, I came back home to rest for 3 days.
During
these 3 days spent at home, in my bedroom that had no crucifix, and no pictures
of JESUS or
“If you
really are my God and if you love me, show it to me: the doctors have promised
me to recover 30% of my vision after the operation of the optic nerve: but if
You give me back 100% of my vision, I promise you I will go back to Church, I
will go to confession and I will receive holy communion every Sunday”.
I dared to
make this ”deal” with the Lord! … The day after when I
woke up, I was cured and I didn’t need any operation anymore. I kept my promise
and when I was in church I had the feeling I was in Heaven!! ; After that I
became catechist during 8 years. In 1978, I went to my first pilgrimage to San
Damiano.
Around 1981,God asked me to heal the sick through prayer and by the
laying on of hands: since then I have been able to cure a lot of people, and
some of them from very serious illnesses.
After SIX
Novenas in a row at San Damiano, it was my first trip to Dozulé where the
Virgin Mary sent me.
The WONDERS of these pilgrimages:
-The first bus: 32
people.” With you it will make 33”God said to me,”33 is Christ’s Number “; and
on the way back from this pilgrimage, from Dozulé to
-For each pilgrimage we lived
“the Supernatural of Heaven”, the unending Help of the good Lord:
Each Wednesday, at my place,
we are 12 to 15 to gather to pray the Rosary together. The last Wednesday of
February 1989,a month before the exact date of the
pilgrimage, nobody had put his name down and during the prayer of the Rosary; I
talked to my Jesus in silence:
“I have no name written down! Don’t You want Your Dozulé anymore?
And then two INVISIBLE hands opened my chest starting
from the middle; it hurt so much, and I felt my heart inflating like a sponge
filling with water, then I heard Christ talking to me:
“Yes ,I want this Pilgrimage, and I
am going to organise it!
-How are You going to do it?
“They are all going to hear Me the same way you are
able to hear Me ,
and they will come from far away ,some from very far away; and you won’t
know most of them”.
I thought that Jesus was finished so I said: ”Thy Will be done”, but the Lord added:
“Go two by two to bring the Good News of Dozulé”.
The SAME NIGHT, the first people were ringing :on the
following Wednesday, when it was time for the Rosary at my place, 44 people had
already put their names down; and 44 others followed on the next Wednesday
coming from far away, from the Hautes-Alpes, Savoie, Loire, Haute-Loire,
Haute-Savoie region, from Toulouse and even from Paris.
At the end 88
people in two buses left for Dozulé, ”two by two”, for
a Pilgrimage organised by My Jesus just like He had promised me; 88, twice the
number 8:this “Eighth day” the one Jesus is talking about in one of His
Messages: the Day of the Reign of God on Earth, the Era of the Holy Spirit, the
Era of Love that
In 1990,on February the 28th,NOBODY had written his name
down for the Pilgrimage; on top of that I became sick with angina, I had to
rest in bed, and not do anything. This is what happened:
My old Mother went for the tenth time to the letter
box: she only found a little white envelope with” a Message of Our Lady of
Medjugorje” that had been given to the Children of Medjugorje in1985 and that
was saying something along these lines:
“My
Children, soon you will know where Evil comes from; PRAY and PERSEVERE, I am
WITH you; WITH God, EVERYTHING can be achieved, even what seems impossible”.
So I
left my bed; nobody could stop me; God had just said to me:
“Get
up and walk!”
JESUS had already
told me:” If you sit down, they will lie down! . So,
where were my pilgrims? I decide not to wait for them. I booked 3 buses, 150
rooms in the hotels and restaurants of the city of
At the last
minutes we had to find two extra buses and 100 more rooms in the hotels:
everything got organised like a miracle because God was with us and we left
with 5 full buses.
For EACH
Pilgrimage we can see Jesus’ mark, because there are people like
In 1984, to
give me solace, to comfort me, and in order for me to pass on my Faith with all
the Love that God gives me for Dozulé, JESUS showed me what exactly was this
Blessed and Sacred PLACE: as I was starting to take pilgrims to Dozulé, JESUS
wanted to remove the slightest ”grain of doubt”:
“I SAW, in
shades going from light blue to royal blue, and shades going from cream to
blazing white (like JESUS’ tunic), I SAW a HUGE light blue Cross appearing in
the sky. I was kneeling on the high hill (La Haute Butte) in Dozulé, when a
small luminous Cross, that stayed for only 3 seconds,
forced me to look at the sky. And this is when I saw the huge light blue Cross
with JESUS in front of it.
I thought:” This is JESUS with His crown but I can’t
see His Crown very well”; His royal blue coat was opening on a blazing white
tunic to show, on His Chest, His Sacred Heart that was blazing with blue and
white rays. Then JESUS withdrew from His Cross and gave way to His Most Holy
Mother:
This City was
just there, on the left side of the Cross and of Mary who hadn’t moved.
So I exclaimed:” Here is the New Jerusalem that is
coming down from Heaven”; and then everything disappeared, starting with the
white City; when it reached the Cross, the gradual elimination of the vision
came to a standstill to show me Christ’s Crown of Thorns. Yes indeed! JESUS was
crowned and His Crown was hanging on the top of the Cross: this was the last
thing I saw in Dozulé on this day.”
Further
back, I talked about my 6 Novenas of pilgrimages in San Damiano, which
correspond to 54 pilgrimages. Five novenas started in 1978 to obtain the
conversion of my 5 children, because I never had the joy of having any of them
praying next to me; they all refuse violently to hear me talking about God.
I offered
the 6th Novena of pilgrimages to obtain from The Good Lord, the cure
of my grand son, who was seriously ill after surgery in
And this is
during the 9th pilgrimage of the 6th Novena that
During these
6 Novenas, during these 54 visits to the Virgin Mary, I haven’t been spared of
sharp pain in my stomach similar to the pain of giving birth. It always started
right at the moment when we left, and went on till the end of the Prayers; it
was only on the way back that the pain would stop.54 times I have been through
that, without understanding it.
During the 5
Novenas for my children, I prayed crying for their conversion, without being
answered; Then I heard
Thirty days
after, my husband was totally converted; I can honestly say; ”He was” and I
wouldn’t be able to say that it was coming from him. Since then he helps me
with everything: he helps me to go and visit the sick, to organise the
pilgrimages, in spite of a very serious respiratory deficiency.
As for both my daughters, one in
“My
child, you don’t know how to pray. Don’t ask the way you do. Say: ”Father thy Will be done and not mine”.
I had cried
so much, prayed so much and so badly! -That I eventually fell on the Way of the
Cross during the procession, I was exhausted: but I carried on with the help of
two good friends.
One day, at
home, I couldn’t carry on anymore so I said to the Lord in front the beautiful
picture of Merciful Jesus:” I am exhausted, I am going to die, I
quit….”Suddenly, JESUS became alive on the picture: His Holy Face, visible in
3D,was shining like silver and in my bedroom I heard
in a very loud voice:” You are
I looked at Him crying: ”No,
NO! Now that I know You, I CANNOT, I do not WANT to abandon YOU!”. ”So pick up your cross, suffer and follow Me”. And from that day on, has started all this Love
that is leading me faster and faster, higher and higher, to the point of
feeling the Breath of The Living God through my whole being.
During these
6 Novenas, I had the feeling that my daughters would not be able to avoid a
divorce.
But I
thought that at least God would protect the two children that each of them had.
I hoped that they would not suffer too much from their parents’ separation; and
I was thinking: ”My God! Why am I thinking that a
miracle is still possible?”
God’s Will
revealed Itself where I wasn’t expecting It.
The third
year of these Pilgrimages to San Damiano, during which I was so sick that it
was only thanks to the help of God that I could stand up, SOMETHING else was
happening in Heaven; and this is why we don’t know how to pray if we don’t
systematically add to our prayers: “Father Thy Will be done, not mine”.
In 1980 as I
was coming in my bedroom, I heard my father’s voice (he passed away in 1956):
“THANK YOU my
dearest Child, thanks to your suffering of Love, We are free; we can now enter
the Heaven of Glory; it is the communion between the Saints in Heaven and the
Saints on Earth, between the Living on Earth and the Living in Heaven”.
I was quite
new in God’s way towards Jesus; and I had never heard these words anywhere
before, but what stroke me the most is that my dearest father had spent 24
years in Purgatory! Before this event I wasn’t used to pray for the Holy Souls
in Purgatory, I wasn’t offering Masses for them either and God in His infinite
Kindness, has used my suffering to set free my father and other Souls, because
my father said to me;”WE have been set free.” How could I only imagine that he
was still in Purgatory, him who was so generous and he was such a good person!
“It is true, Lord, that he didn’t want to go inside a Church
but he was praying in his own way to thank you, and he did so much good during
his life!
How
It was so good
to be able to speak with dear father that I called him again; so Christ said to
me in a loud voice:” Leave My Souls alone! So I said straight away: ”In this case, you come to me Lord; I NEED to hear you,
Lord”. And that’s how my great story of Love with God started; since then I can
hear Jesus, Mary and the Saints from Heaven talking to me.
Now I have to
give testimony through acts, and the fruits that have grown from these acts:
Here is the story of a friend of mine from
The
testimony through Acts of” Bienvenue” for the book “Witnesses of the
Cross-Message of Life”.
God says to us: ”You have not chosen Me, it is I who has chosen you
first”. And that’s how it has been with our friend” Bienvenue”; as I said she
is a Portuguese lady and she used to come to my place and pray every Wednesday.
She belongs to
this group of prayer that has been running for almost 10 years, a group that is
faithful and that perseveres in the fervour of the Holy Rosary. In 1986 during
her first Pilgrimage to Dozulé, The Glorious Cross overcame her with joy: She
said: ”I have never lived such a happiness! Jesus is
here, in this Blessed and Sacred place made holy by God the Father! How can
anyone resist the call of the Cross?”
And so every
year in March and in September, she came with us on Pilgrimage; attracted,
amazed, she felt Christ’s call; she felt this incredible need to bring the
Message of Love of the Glorious Cross to her native country,
We all
encourage her, with great insistence, to translate the book herself, in her
native language; but she only has a certificate obtained in primary school that
she got in her country so she put a lot of effort in it but each time the
editor was contradicting her saying something like this:” It is not exactly the
same meaning for this word or for this expression”.. ; It was easier for her to
understand French because she had been in
So she had to
correct her draft in Portuguese multiple times; and finally her translation has
been accepted. I had supported her to work as quickly as possible because she
wasn’t well and her illness was getting worse. We could see her getting weaker
and weaker but she was fighting this bad illness. And this is in the middle of
great suffering that she finished her book; and soon after she went to
hospital.
She had been a
widow for a very short time, the children were all alone at home; she had a
girl who was 14 years old, a young man who was 20 years old and handicapped, in
a wheelchair, who went to hospital with her so they would be together; and she
also had two other boys who were 19 and 27.These two boys were working as
bricklayers to provide for the family. During her stay in hospital they all
took turns to be with her, to help her eat because she was rapidly losing her
strength. His book was sent to
It was
“Bienvenue’s book,
already published in
One of the
priest said: ”As soon as I finished reading the book,
I organised a bus with all these pilgrims.”
They
One of them
said to me: ”Will you kiss this lady for all of us and
for the two priests?”
The Portuguese
father kissed me for “Bienvenue” and on behalf of all the Portuguese pilgrims,
the ones from our pilgrimage and the ones from
I am a missionary ;I am leaving soon for
“Bienvenue”
had said to me:” We are all totally committed, to serve God in His Cross. I
give my life for The Glorious Cross”; and we all made the same promise to God.
“Bienvenue
is, in Truth, Witness of The Glorious Cross, called by the Love of Christ who
lives and suffers in her”.
God is
glorified in all His little ones.